The Salazar Wedding

These are some pics from the wedding I stood in last weekend. The pictures are out of order. First is Alexis and Roger cutting their cake. Second a picture of Andrew and I, then a pic of my escort and I before the march. Last, Alexis and Roger after they said I do!

Third time's a charm!

Today was my third day in a row of walking and crunches. I really like it. I'm starting off slow but I hope to really stick with it and make lots of progress! I'd like to be in good shape again. But instead of looking too far ahead, I'm just taking it one day at a time. My goal is to walk everyday until I can get disciplined. My problem is if I miss I day, I miss a second day, then a third...So if I can just walk 20-30 minutes a day starting off, I figure I'll work my way up. I can't wait!

Romans 8:28

My Life Group meets on Tuesday nights. Tonight we finished up Romans Chapter 8. However, I couldn't stop thinking about the following verse, "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose."

I keep thinking about my life, and the recent job loss and what this means for my future. What does God want me to do? Those of you reading this know that Andrew and I want to have a baby, but with all the changes recently, is it a good idea?

The crazy thing is, I've never been so unsure in my life. I have more questions now than I've had ever had before.

People keep asking me how the job search is going and frankly --I don't think they'll understand when I tell them I'm not sure. Because I'm not sure what type of job I should get, if I should even get one or if I should go back to school? I'm having a hard time putting aside my thoughts. They keep bouncing back and forth.


I was sharing with my church friends tonight my opinion. I keep thinking ---should I just trust God? Does He want me to live out the plans Andrew and I had to have a baby? I'm also wondering if He wants me to teach. I'm really struggling with that one. I'm struggling with it all actually. Tonight one of the girls told me, "Just listen to Him and quit debating yourself." She's right...I just need to trust God and see what my future holds.

Easier said than done though...So please pray for me that I will truly, truly listen to what God is telling me. Pray that I find clarity in His words and trust Him with it all. These last couple of weeks have been a struggle for me mentally...well you can tell, you've seen my last few blogs. And I hate to be like this because it's not me, but like I said ---I've never been so unsure before and writing is my way to express it all so thank you for listening :)

I'm open to hear your thoughts as well.

My last day

I walked into my VP's office at 11:15 and learned that I was no longer employed. Today was my last day. And while he was so nice about it all and really appreciated me, it was still hard to take. I'm in shock and upset about the whole situation but I know that God has something in store for me. This is his way of telling me ---I've got something else in mind for you. I'll just wait to see what He's got planned. Your prayers are very much helpful at this time.

Ehhh

The wedding is less than a month away and I just feel so fat :/ And to top it off, I ate Taco Bueno today. Even "nacho sized" it. lol Well, my Lifegroup was just cancelled for the night so maybe I should get my Nacho butt to the track. It's such a pretty day for it. I need to vow to walk just about every day until the wedding (Feb 21). Let's see if I can do it!

Putting things in perspective

I had lunch with some good friends today and one of my friends made a life changing decision. However, I couldn't help but think..."God is working in her heart." She has chosen to listen to her heart and I couldn't be happier for her. Right now, I'm kind of stuck in what God has planned for me. I'm just not sure what He has in store for me, but I've come to place where I really do love God with all my heart and that's something I've never truly felt or experienced before, but I have a love for Him like none other. In fact, I am trying to fight the tears right now as I'm typing. It's just amazing to me, and I can't wait to see what He has in store for me. I too am going through life changing events right now and I hope I listen to Him like my friend. She really is an inspiration to me ---it's hard to explain, but her decision showed where her heart lies and that's what inspires me. She's basing her decision out of love and not money. You don't see that too much anymore. So thanks, friend :)

I feel refreshed

The words just sank in today at church, "get more involved, connect with God this year, listen to what He wants." I just feel so motivated to go out there and serve. I want to get more involved in church this year and see how I can help. I was amazed at how a family could adopt 2 children into their home and how others just did what God was telling them to do. I know what I want to do, but I just don't see how it's that easy. I would love to run a center for the homeless. Have a place for them to sleep and eat, and help them to get jobs. I'm going to pray and see what happens. I don't have the resources, the knowledge or the financial capabilities right now. Also, maybe God will use me to work in a homeless shelter, or get me involved in His own way. I'll just have to wait and see for now. Oh, but I just love the feeling I have now. Just had to share!!!